*Sigh* Damnit guys! Tonight just feels like one of those nights..where all i can do right now is think....=/..ive been sitting here for a while now...and i cant help but feel like there is something missing in my life..sumthing huge. As much as i wanna just break down and start crying, i jus cant...because i already know nothing good can come out of it..and it wont help any to just pitty myself. None of you guys know how hard a long distance relationship is until you've tried it yourself. And for those of you who KNOW how difficult it is..also knows that it takes alot out of you. Not knowing exactly whats going on in the persons life you truely care about is basically a scary feeling. Knowing that it could end at any random time due to some stupid ass shit. And Im not gonna lie. Ive been tempted to just let go and move on because that would just be the easiest way out. But when i really think about it, thats the worst thing i could ever do.  For all of you people taking shit for granted like actually getting to SEE the person you care about face to face, actually getting to touch them, Or even talk to them for a few seconds..should really jus take time and appreciate that kinda stuff. Cuz you never know when you're gonna lose that. I would give anything in this whole world to have Alyssa here with me right now. But from the looks of it, thats not gonna happen anytime soon. And I know what you're thinking. If its so hard on me then why are we still together? Yeah, thats an easy question. Because i love her with all of my heart. Yes, Im fuckin 15 years old and i CANT be in love right!? I wouldnt know what love really is RIGHT? bull fuckin shit. I learned early about what love is. And I just wanna let you guys know, what me and alyssa have is sumthing real. and all you haters out there who think its jus some silly "middle skewl" shit, can jus fuck off. Cuz you aint gotta read this shit. But honestly, im not tryin to say, "oh yeah, ive experienced it all!!! Listen to me, cause i know more about relationships than you!"...cuz thats jus some plain gay ass shit. I know lots of people out there have it worse than me. And all i have to say to those people are im sorry that you have to go through it. Lmao..fuckin shit...i dont even know where im going with this anymore. I guess im jus fed up with those gay ass remarks people say about long distance relationships. And if your reading this. You dont have to feel sorry for me, just take what im sayin and use it.......

dskjfkdsjfklsadjfjsdkfjksdlajfjdsakfalsj ok im done...*sigh*...and now i feel like a gay ass homo...lalalala...lmao...good thing no one looks at xanga anymore...so then people wont know how gay i really am..haha..but yeah... fjdsklfjdsklfkjsdfjsdajkf....

To alyssa - Baby i love you!!!!!!!!!

-Marc

oh awesome....myspace isnt working..so i guess this is my last fuckin resort..haha naw..but i dont know....i might jus wanna get this xanga shit going again...=]....but yeah...ill update tomorrow..cuz im gay..and dont know what to say...have a great day...in the bay...while drinkin whey...ho.

Marc

i love my baby..

damn cuhz..havent wrote in this shit in hella long...shit...xangas fuckin gay tho..lol.oh well..its sumthin to do..ummm...today was gay..the end...

lalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalala.....

i wanna stab you..